I will begin my (our) journey in my next writing. You will not understand right away. I myself do not understand or can believe the events that are yet to occur.

I need you and all who are my readers to be my strength.

First I want to explain how I write. The simple fact is that I am not a writer, so do not hold this against me. I will try my best.

Second, I will tie much of my feelings, thoughts, emotions and daily happenings through songs.

I will intertwine my reality with songs so that you may relate to my world. These songs are very specific and I have been chosen them for a very SPECIFIC reason. LISTEN as they will speak louder than I. They will be your guide and my release. Remember the words are the key, not necessary the visuals. But, other elements may be just important from dates (TIME) of the work, the titles to where the music originated.

Put the pieces together and you will know the truth. I can only guide you as I must learn from you too.

As a note, make sure to read this blog in its entirety to include all comments.

You must learn to think for yourself. Things are not as they appear.

Come back soon… I will be waiting…..

The following is my life as best as I can describe it. It is what I describe as the beginning and the end. The beginning of chaos and the end to suffering. I come to you from the beyond. Beyond time and space. A place yet to be discovered by man. But I assure you that this place does in fact exist. This is my safe haven. Well at least for the time being.

Since I do not know what time is anymore, I will enter days as events that took place in my life.

Where do I start??? I am lost, as if I am in a nightmare and unable to wake myself. My life is of nonexistence…it seems hopeless….maybe pointless? That is unless I am meant to find you.

If “YOU” are reading this, are you the key to my knowledge, understanding and life itself? Maybe you were meant to find me?? I need your help as you will need mine in order to survive.

Are you THE connection to my density? Is there a such thing as pre-density? What is my fate? Is it the same as yours? Only time will tell. But as you will soon see, time is nothing but a theory.

My story that I am about to tell you is one of love, disappointment, failure, sadness, mystery, intrigue and pure terror that evolves into the supernatural– a thriller to end. But the question is where will it end? If you are up to it, please read on and if not STOP reading this blog right now! This is only meant for the strong as the weak will die.

My story reminds me of a song that my mother use to listen to years ago. The song is Real Life – Send Me an Angel I should warn you that music is what keeps me going!!!! So listen up………..

Here are some of the words……………..

“Send me an angel
send me an angel
right now
……………..
Do you believe in heaven above
do you believe in love.
Don’t tell a lie don’t be false or untrue
it all comes back to you.
Open fire on my burning heart
I’ve never been lucky in love.
My defenses are down a kiss or a frown
I can’t survive on my own.
If a girl walks in and carves her name in my heart
I’ll turn and run away.
Everyday we’ve all been led astray
it’s hard to be lucky in love.
It gets in your eyes
it’s making you cry

Don’t know what to do
don’t know what to do.
You’re looking for love calling heaven above.
Send me an angel
send me an angel
right now
right now.
……………………..

Empty dreams can only disappoint in a room behind your smile.
But don’t give up
don’t give up
you can be lucky in love.
It gets in your eyes
it’s making you cry
Don’t know what to do
don’t know what to do.
You’re looking for love calling heaven above.
Send me an angel
send me an angel
right now
…………………………

There is wisdom in these words. Can you see the beauty in them like I can? Are you like me?

I will assume that you are out there reading this and you have accepted my mission of hope. You will be my strength and I will come every day to you in this blog. In hopes that one day we will find our destines and just maybe our fates will intertwine.

If I do not blog you will know that I did not make it. With or without you…I will live for you and pull on your strength.

I feel that you are out there and that you do care. And if not, I am fine knowing that I can build my strength on just hope alone.

I will wait for you to FIND me. Only then will I come to you every day with my adventurous tales.

Until next time my Angel, I am signing off.